little pink pill, little pink pill...
A wonderful thing happened today. I took my very last little pink pill.
I've been on antidepressants for about a year and a half. I spent five months on the wrong ones, which was not fun at all. But the last 13 months have been a lot more smooth sailing. However, I've come to place (and my crazy doctor agrees) that I am ready to go it on my own without the chemical help.
If you guys don't understand antidepressants, what they do is make areas of my brain function that aren't working so good. They help it produce the proper amounts of chemicals and all that so that I won't be chemically inbalanced and clinically depressed anymore. So hopefully all that is in order, and along with the tools I have learned through counselling, I will be able to live a balanced life that will no longer be filled with sadness, but rather with light!
I'm pretty excited. I phone Mom this morning while I was eating chips for breakfast so she could listen to me sing the "Little Pink Pill" song one more time while I swallowed my last pill.
I really hope that marks the end of my journey with Paxil, or any antidepressants for that matter. I'm really praying that withdrawl will go fast and that I won't relapse. If anyone out there in blog world thinks of me, and feels like sending up a prayer about these things, I would really appreciate that.
PS- Its my two year anniversary on Saturday the 19th. Love you Stefan!
I've been on antidepressants for about a year and a half. I spent five months on the wrong ones, which was not fun at all. But the last 13 months have been a lot more smooth sailing. However, I've come to place (and my crazy doctor agrees) that I am ready to go it on my own without the chemical help.
If you guys don't understand antidepressants, what they do is make areas of my brain function that aren't working so good. They help it produce the proper amounts of chemicals and all that so that I won't be chemically inbalanced and clinically depressed anymore. So hopefully all that is in order, and along with the tools I have learned through counselling, I will be able to live a balanced life that will no longer be filled with sadness, but rather with light!
I'm pretty excited. I phone Mom this morning while I was eating chips for breakfast so she could listen to me sing the "Little Pink Pill" song one more time while I swallowed my last pill.
I really hope that marks the end of my journey with Paxil, or any antidepressants for that matter. I'm really praying that withdrawl will go fast and that I won't relapse. If anyone out there in blog world thinks of me, and feels like sending up a prayer about these things, I would really appreciate that.
PS- Its my two year anniversary on Saturday the 19th. Love you Stefan!
posted by Caitlin @ 5:44 PM
10 Comments:
At 7:18 PM,
Kendall & Sabrina said…
Caitlin!
That's awesome! I'm PUMPED to share in your excitement with both the last of the little pink pills and 2 years with Stefan. It's a good month! And a snow day too!! Blessings as you continue to learn and grow in your walk with Jesus. I look forward to the time when we can see each other again. Love you lots!
Love Sabrina
At 8:48 PM,
Dana said…
Hey Caitlin, got your blog from Simon's. Congrats on taking your last pill. I hope and pray that you are released and healed of your depression. Totally understand what you have gone through. I've been on paxil for about four years now.It's been up and down but still need it. I've started a support group in Dalmeny for Depression/bi-polar disorder. Hope it will help people. Anyway - hope all is well. Congrats on two years! Wow time flies! -Dana P
At 4:05 PM,
Camille said…
Caiti,
I will be praying for you in this transition time. I actually wasn't aware that you were on this...and it makes me sad that you had to go thru that. But, God is obviously working in your life and I trust He will keep guiding you. we love you and are always here for you!
At 11:40 AM,
Janelle said…
i'll be praying for you - i know how hard it is to take that step.
At 1:32 AM,
Princess Warrior said…
Hey Caitlin,
I just wanted to let you know that I think you are an amazing young women and that I will definitely say a prayer for you whenever i light the pumpkin spice candle that you won at camille's shower which I never Got returned to you, oops.
Sherry Palmer
At 12:14 PM,
Cordella said…
Hi Caitlin,
CONGRATULATIONS on your two years and on your last little pink pill! I can almost hear you singing the song:) Did you know that I STILL have your daybook. It has been in my back pack for two weeks, just waiting to reunite with you!:) Anyway, see you tuesday!
At 7:01 PM,
karina said…
miss you caitlin. come back here and visit sometime, will ya? you can come over and we'll have some good white chocolate toffee coffee or whatever that stuff was we had that time...we were looking at some pictures from a few years ago at youth and you were awesome in them. praying for you :)
At 11:03 AM,
Hailey Beanne said…
i thought of you and your lack of little pink pills so i wrote you a letter. hope it comes soon. i love you very much and youre strongly in my prayers.
At 12:00 AM,
Anonymous said…
Hey Roomie,
Oh the little pink pill, oh the money for the little pink pills...grrr. You have been in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that you are doing well. Keep me updated. Love you lots,
You know who.
At 1:21 AM,
Anonymous said…
Hey Caitlin, wow it's amazing isn't it. I remember when I frist stoped taking anti-depressants about 2yrs. ago and I remember aside from having to be really disciplined with exercising lots to work off all of the weight that sometimes goes along with stopping that there were hard days still... but the thing that changed is that I knew that I was strong enough to make it through those hard days and that it wasn't so much of what the drug did chemically but what it enabled me to do mentally so that I wouldn't need it anymore. You are such a cool Simon's sister! I just want to encourage you and remind you that there are freinds everywhere (whether really tight friends or not)that care about you, so take care and be blessed. you'll do great!
-Keith
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